{"id":1603,"date":"2017-05-15T07:15:09","date_gmt":"2017-05-15T11:15:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/robinbotie.com\/blog\/?p=1603"},"modified":"2017-05-15T08:11:47","modified_gmt":"2017-05-15T12:11:47","slug":"taking-a-day-off-from-grief","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/robinbotie.com\/blog\/taking-a-day-off-from-grief\/","title":{"rendered":"Taking a Day Off From Grief"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Robin\u201cWhat magnificent thing will we do today?\u201d I ask my daughter. She\u2019s been dead for six years now, but this is how I begin my days. Walking the dog in the driveway, looking through trees to see what color the sky is wearing, I say, \u201cWhat magnificent thing, Marika?\u201d<\/p>\n

Almost anything I do after dragging myself out of bed qualifies as magnificent. Other than burrowing back under the covers. The \u2018magnificent thing\u2019 is something that has the potential to propel me forward. For a while. Something to look forward to, that might even make me feel good. Because, if I don\u2019t plan or push myself, I could easily spend my time immobilized by grief, moping and miserable. The work of facing the world and putting a life back together is exhausting. Grief invades your sleep, your physical and mental wellbeing, your creativity, all parts of your life. Counselors<\/a> and support sites <\/a>agree that taking time off from grieving helps us heal. Not that we can simply switch it on or off, but we can nudge it over from center stage to the background, or take baby-steps back from it to focus on something else for a while. To recharge. Regain strength<\/a>, courage and hope.<\/p>\n

Last weekend a friend asked me to go with her on a winery tour<\/a>. It would be a whole day away from home, away from the computer, online support groups, and my quiet space to nurse my emptiness. All I had to do was sit in the car as she drove from one winery to another and we\u2019d be served wines paired with beautiful foods. It was something Marika would have loved, and it would be magnificent, so I went. And I pretty much forgot about my grief. (I think maybe I even had fun).<\/p>\n

I only \u201ccheated\u201d once. Looking over Cayuga Lake, holding a glass of Thirsty Owl <\/a>dry Riesling, I was missing my daughter, so I made a silent toast to her. And blew a kiss to the clouds.<\/p>\n

After the tour I was cranky. Taking a daylong break from grief turned out to be more exhausting than staying home grieving. Could barely eat dinner. Too tired to talk. Drove home, desperate to get to bed. Walked the dog without even reflecting on the day\u2019s magnificent things.<\/p>\n

And I felt guilty for spending so much time not thinking about Marika. But I know that she knows, and you know, it doesn\u2019t mean I love her any less.<\/p>\n

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What can you do to take a break from your troubles?<\/em><\/p>\n

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