{"id":257,"date":"2013-10-07T18:36:18","date_gmt":"2013-10-07T18:36:18","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/robinbotie.com\/blog\/?p=257"},"modified":"2014-01-22T11:09:22","modified_gmt":"2014-01-22T11:09:22","slug":"healing-from-loss-off-comfort-road","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/robinbotie.com\/blog\/healing-from-loss-off-comfort-road\/","title":{"rendered":"Healing from Loss: Off Comfort Road"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Rusty,<\/a>Notice anything new? What do you think of this updated version of my website? What needs to change? Somehow this hatched over the past two weeks amid many tears and tantrums.<\/p>\n

\u201cI want to indent. The photos should be bigger. This isn\u2019t right. Why can\u2019t it be like it was before?\u201d I torment Bob at Ameriweb, my website\u2019s new host. Bob works late nights to make the transition to my new online home go smoothly. But it is so different from what I knew and loved about my old site that I am having a hard time accepting it. \u201cIt\u2019s too many changes,\u201d I protest. This is just the beginning. This week I will register for a new health care carrier. I will start writing for a small online newspaper. I may even start to discover how the government shutdown will affect things.<\/p>\n

\u201cHow much longer are you going to be working on your book? Don\u2019t you think it\u2019s time to move on?\u201d my friend Liz prods. But I am still doggedly making changes to my memoir. And maybe I\u2019m a little afraid to take the next steps.
\nI wasn\u2019t always this wimpy about moving forward. I wonder what happened to the adventurous spirit that buoyed me as I got my pilot license, became a lifeguard at the age of fifty, and went alone last year to Australia to scatter my daughter\u2019s ashes. Why am I so averse to change now?<\/p>\n

At six in the morning on Sunday I burrow deep under the blankets not yet ready to face the new day. There is too much I can\u2019t control. Nothing is the same anymore. My website, my book, \u2026 my life. Suddenly I need to just blow everything off.
\nSo I go with my friends and our dogs for a walk in the woods off Comfort Road. We take a new trail in a familiar area. It is cool and damp in the forest. Then it becomes hot and muggy. The dark cloudy sky turns light as the sun comes out and I tie up my hair and tear off my jacket. If I close my eyes it feels like it\u2019s still August. But when I open them I notice the green of summer is almost gone. The stream beds that were dry in July are muddy and wet now. And the trail is covered in red and yellow leaves.<\/p>\n

\u201cLook. Suki\u2019s wearing earrings,\u201d I say. The fallen leaves stick to her. She is like a trotting mop on the forest floor. We laugh when she shakes.<\/p>\n

There is really no escaping change. I just have to find the joy in it.\"Suki,<\/a><\/p>\n

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