{"id":67,"date":"2013-05-27T04:56:45","date_gmt":"2013-05-27T04:56:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/robinbotie.com\/blog\/?p=67"},"modified":"2014-01-22T11:07:22","modified_gmt":"2014-01-22T11:07:22","slug":"new-journeys-to-healing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/robinbotie.com\/blog\/new-journeys-to-healing\/","title":{"rendered":"New Journeys to Healing"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"FULLMOONCAMPFIRE2\"<\/a>At a Full Moon campfire I watch a friend’s daughter and remember my own daughter Marika Warden who died of leukemia at age 21<\/p>\n

I wish I could make last Monday disappear. I wish I could take back the EF-5 tornado, give back the lives lost, and say it was only a nightmare. But as the people of Moore, Ohio and others newly bereaved begin the long journey to healing from loss, I can only offer this:\u00a0 the pain you can\u2019t imagine living with will soften and you will feel better in time.<\/p>\n

Shortly after my daughter died, one thing I tried was \u201cbookmarking\u201d a special time or place for her memory. I chose the full moon. So whenever I saw a full moon or an almost-full moon I would think about my daughter. To this day, on moonlit nights when I walk the dog I sing or talk to Marika.<\/p>\n

I think about her a lot even when there\u2019s no moon. At first, if an hour went by or a day went by that I didn\u2019t think of her, I felt remorse. When I started to find things in my new life without her to smile or laugh about, feelings of guilt crept over me. At one point I asked myself, \u201cDid Marika ever like seeing me unhappy or suffering?\u201d No. Even my feisty daughter with her anger issues and attitude was in her best mood when her mother was happy. She would want me to enjoy my life now.<\/p>\n

So when I get an invitation to a full moon campfire I grab my opportunity to have fun and remember my daughter at the same time.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

At a Full Moon campfire I watch a friend’s daughter and remember my own daughter Marika Warden who died of leukemia at age 21 I wish I could make last Monday disappear. I wish I could take back the EF-5 tornado, give back the lives lost, and say it was only a nightmare. But as […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[25],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-67","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-25"],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t